A Hundred CPRs Later...

Assalamu Alaykum. (Peace be upon you!)
It was just another regular evening on a 24-hour duty at the Emergency Department (ED or ER, for most of us). I was one of the only two Trauma Interns on duty and was just taking a break from charting a very long list of patients--ranging from those who fell from stairs to those intoxicated madmen stabbing each other to death! It's a rare occasion for Trauma ER to have no patients in 3 hours time so I grabbed that opportunity to go out and buy a cold drink at the ER kiosk (it was around 1AM by the way). 
On my way back to our station in the Acute Care Unit (ACU), I could see the Triage was already in a mess. There were piles of stretcher-beds (with a patient of course) and hordes of their watchers waiting to be seen by our TO (triage officer). Where was the TO, you asked? I wouldn't be surprised to see her in the resuscitation bay (RB), well--resuscitating a patient. And I was not wrong: There was an on-going "double code" at th…

Last 50 days of Internship

Internship ends in a few days (July 1 to be exact) and since March 22, we started the #Last100Days of Internship countdown. Those who are following my Instagram account would know that I have been posting random pics with the countdown numbers (see above photos). I tried my best to complete the 100 days but it was just so hard! haha.
And now, who would have thought that we are now down to the last 50 days! It happened so fast! I can't even believe that the ten months of internship--no, the FIVE YEARS in Medical School is about to end! SubhanaAllah! 
I do not even know what to feel right now. Should I be excited, because everything's about to end? Or should I be anxious and scared, because... well, because the daunting future that lies before me is certainly scary! (read: Board exams, being a full-pledged MD, too much expectations from everyone...)
Still, as I keep on recounting the remaining days of internship, I just can't help but look back... those enumerable experien…

Outside that Room

March 13, 2017
I was outside the hemodialysis (HD) room, watching some videos on Youtube while waiting for my patient’s HD to start. A few minutes after I seated myself on a vacant seat outside, a woman came near me. I recognized her the moment she approached, she’s my patient’s mother. I could see her eyes weary, tired and full of questions. It takes only a few seconds to recognize a soul in search of answers to her endless questions. And this one is a definite example.
“Doc,” she started meekly, “Doc, tapatin niyo po ako.”(Doc please tell me)
“Po? Ano po yun, maam?” I asked, my earphones already removed for me to focus on her every word.
“Doc, ano na po ba talaga ang kalagayan ng anak ko? Di na po ba siya gagaling? Mamamatay na po ba siya?” (Doc, what is the real condition of my child? Will he still get well? Will he die?) her voice shaking with fear, full of anxiety over what she might find out.
I asked her to sit down beside me and calm down. Then I inquired how much does she already k…

Reading ECGs

Assalamu Alaykum! (Peace be with you!)
It's my last week as a Senior Intern in Internal Medicine and this week, we had the chance (and honor) to accompany our Service Senior Resident, Dr. David Francisco on his ECG rounds. We went to the Central ECG Room where all the ECG requests and results are done, took the remaining unread ECG's and read them. Awesome, right! 

I always had a hard time understanding ECG's before. Of course, before medschool, those lines were nothing but alien scriptures to me like everyone else! haha. But after studying Basic Clinical Cardiology (one of my "first loves") in LU4 and getting exposed to the wonders of electrophysiology of the heart, understanding the peaks and troughs, the elevations and the depressions of those lines, was simply amazing! I still can't believe a few weird lines could already tell a clinician what the heck is happening with his patient's heart! 
Anyway, after few years in PGH, I am still in the learning stag…

Pre-Departure Reflections

Assalamu alaykum!
This week marks our first week in the community as part of our 6-week rotation in FCh260.2 Community Medicine. We will be assigned in Mendez and Bailen, Cavite. We will be leaving for Cavite this Tuesday, in sha Allah. But before that, we had to finish some series of orientations, trainings and lectures on community organizing. This is pretty exciting as you may all know that I am an avid lover of Community medicine. It's like my passion! haha. I am among the 10% of medical students who wouldn't hesitate to raise their hands when asked to practice as Doctors to the far-flung communities. The smell of the unknown adventure that lies ahead certainly excites my soul! Yohohoho!
Anyway. We were asked to submit a "Pre-Departure" Reflection paper with the following guide questions. I have a far longer response to all of them, but I had to cut the, short as we were limited to one page only haha. I am sharing this to everyone :) 
See you around!

Updates these days

This is just another random update.
It's a Sunday and I am having an unusual free time, so gotta make use of it. So, what's up?
On Life as a Medstudent We're on the last week of our two-month long rotation in Pediatrics. yeap. It's our last seven (or six) days! Yeay! Alhamdulillah, I honestly can't wait for Pediatrics to end. No, not that I don't enjoy Pedia, I do love it! I will surely miss the interactions with the kids... And I know this will perhaps be the last time I will be involved in the field of Pediatrics (especially subspecs) and I am glad to learn a lot from that two months stay with them. I just wanted to end one of the four major rotations in Internship. That will surely be a milestone! Oh yeay! One down, four more to go!
Studies?  I am trying (as hard as I can) to read on cases I meet in the wards as well as in the Emergency room. I started reading the printouts of PLE Reviewer I bought last year. I am already halfway through it, but I ended up …

Rants in PGH

MD = Manong Duties?

After listening to my fellow interns (especially PGIs or Post-Graduate Interns from other medschools) comparing the internship training from other hospitals, I just realized how much we students have been living with disappointments in this field of training. Really, a lot of "ideal" things could have been done to maximize our learning and training for our final year in this prestigious hospital and yet, we end up doing the things that are not actually "suitable" for future doctors to do. (Read: magtulak ng stretcher, mag-akyat-baba ng lab results, etc. instead of directly taking care of patients or reviewing for the boards?) *well, not all the time naman ganito nangyayari... pero still, di talaga siya maganda tingnan. I know, this has always been the norm. That our previous alumni and now professors have experienced far worst than these. But really, is there nothing else we could do to change it? For, let say, making it more "future-doctor f…